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Unamazing

2010-11-15T19:00:00.000-05:00

Dreams, infatuations, inspirations
everyone gets into something
things that make them feel...
things that make them think they are alive
things that satisfy for that moment
ever think that perhaps
it's all unamazing?

Colonoscopy Prep

2010-10-18T17:03:00.002-05:00

For anyone advised to use Magnesium Citrate (MC) to prep for your colonoscopy, here is a little glimpse of your prep life from 4pm --> the next morning!
The directions I received were to buy three 10 oz. bottles of (MC) from any over the counter pharmacy. So, went to CVS a few days before and found the mixture easily and paid less then $10 for 3 lemon flavored glass bottles. That was a pleasant surprise!
OK, so the day of prep arrives. At 4pm, 7pm and 9pm I had to down one of those seemingly small 10oz. glass bottles of MC. I was planning to play volleyball that night, so I was hoping that it would be a quick in and out deal (Yeah, yeah, so I didn't do any research about the prep before starting). After the first sip at 4pm, my lips puckered and one of those feelings of something destroying the enamel on every tooth in my mouth came into play. I don't drink a lot of liquids in one sitting, but I just forced myself to down this as fast as possible. Shortly after, severe nausea and a raging headache kicked in and I felt like I was going to die. I can usually take uncomfortableness and relax on the couch, but I wanted to be in my sleeping quarters.
My roommate and a friend came home shortly after and I asked her to look at the MC b/c she's a dentist and knows different drugs. I needed to know if this was a normal reaction to MC. After looking at the directions, the last line read, mix with ginger ale. Of course, the stomache calming part that I overlooked and deemed unimportant.
I immediately went to the store and got 2 bottles of ginger ale for the next two 10oz. doses of MC.

WHAT A DIFFERENCE!

WARNING:
ALWAYS MIX THIS STUFF WITH GINGER ALE!

The nausea was down to a tolerable level, but I just felt ill. No volleyball for me!
Shortly after the 7pm dose, that's when the firework began! I never knew the power and capabilities of my ass until last night! I know that it may sound extreme, but honestly, the first toilet effect of the MC could be likened to the fire coming out of the back of a rocket when it first blasts off! WHEW! I really thought I was going to be lifted off of the toilet when that powerful explosion of waste came out of my ass! It was violent, explosive, scary and quite shocking! Actually, borderline exciting to know that my body was capable of such a viscous force! So, blasting off was an amazing discovery until about the 5th time. That was when the fire began to kick in.
Guess there can't be a blast off without a bad burn left behind.
It was almost like someone took acid and poured it onto the opening of my ass. This was a miserable experience. When the last dose of this 10oz. concoction went down, I was hoping that it would be over. I couldn't imagine having to do this much longer. The time in between visits to the restroom were now becoming a normal rhythm of life. The acid burning feeling became worse and worse and I was soon seeing a little blood after wiping, but the color of the discharge was beginning to lighten and thin out. I came near shaking every time I had to wipe and began fearing that rumbling feeling in the stomach that sent me running to the bathroom.
At this point, I was so glad that I chose not to go to volleyball!

So, don't plan on doing anything once you start drinking this solution.

make sure to be in a comfortable place that has fast access to a toilet and warn other people that may be sharing the bathroom with you. Your going to need exclusive access at all times!

I finally decided to go to sleep around 11, but my body had other plans. Just as I got comfortable, the "somethings coming whether your ready or not!" began and continued for a couple hours after. To be honest, it would have been beneficial just to remain on the toilet for a few hours.
I finally decided to look up other peoples experiences on the internet and was comforted and entertained to know that I wasn't the only one blasting off during this process! I found some of the comments of others blasting off extremely hilarious, especially because I was experiencing the same phenomenon! I'm actually laughing right now at the thought of the whole blasting off aspect!!!!!!! Amazing!

The last time I looked at the clock it was a little after 2?
I finally went to sleep and woke up knowing that it was blast off time and was dreading the burn. To my surprise, the burn had disappeared! YEAH! A smooth blast off!

So, with all of that blasting off, I had to check the scale to see if there was any perk to that acidic burning pain.

And.............would you know......[drum roll]......................

8 Whole pounds down the drain in 1 night of perpetual blasts offs!!!!! WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!

From this point, the discharge was a clean, light yellow 100% liquid and the burning was over!

The goal is now to get to the colonoscopy location without blasting off on the way. Thankfully, everything went well and made it to the check in point with no accidents! However, when asked by the nurse if I needed the bathroom, I thought it might be a good idea to see if there were anymore launch times.
to my surprise, there was a scheduled launch, but it was tamed down to a light, gentle flow! That chapter of launches was now over! Any other fears of accidents in the operating quarters were all dissolved by the lovely white liquid shot through my IV from the anesthesiologist!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH................. everything from that point on is a wonderful mystery!

2010-10-14T17:50:00.002-05:00

Photographic Gifts
Thanks to thumbtack.com for the opportunity!

Sick of the run around!

2010-07-27T06:14:00.001-05:00

Are you kidding me?!
I understand the BGE run around, though I don't like it, it's something that you can at least prepare for when calling.
But a COMMUNITY POOL?!?!?!
ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!
A small little community pool...
So, I'm trying to be on the ball and go at a slow time, there were only about 5 people there. I was sent to another location to get a pass.
So, I find the other location after several u-turns and there is a strict list of times posted. I talked to the guy, who had no other people waiting for assistance and was told to come back between 6am-1pm or tues 7pm-8pm (at which time I will not be free). So, I prepared to return at 6:30am after getting off of the night shift, all ready with my 3 forms signed and complete, so I can get my pass and crash into my fluffy pillow awaiting me at home. So, question 1, I'm only a renter? Well, our previous friend who was staying as a renter with our friend who owned a place in the community signed a form...what's the deal here?
Panic hit this older gentleman. The 2 forms they signed were no where to be found, and the paperwork was still in hard copy with no computer in sight. At least he took me to get a photo for the pass, but my friend, the owner would have to fill out a form with my name on it, call some lady, and make an appearance at the location.
ALL THIS FOR A COMMUNITY POOL?!!!
GIVE ME A BREAK!
But, the guy was a nice guy...sorry that he had to deliver the run around spiel.
If it's not one thing, it's another.
Especially after coming off the night shift, this was not the kind of thing I wanted to deal with.
You know those moments when you can actually feel your blood boiling underneath your skin, and you wonder if anyone can see smoke coming out of your head?
I think, in those moments, whoever does not have self-control, could use that as a moment to do something stupidly violent. You know the thought is there.
I'm aching over a community pool pass run around!!!!!!
AHHHHHHH!

Blizzard of 2010

2010-02-07T15:27:00.005-05:00

While walking...trudging through the streets, literally trudging, the streets of baltimore, it was a delight to see so many locals out and about. At one intersection on Pratt street, while waiting to cross the road, the smell of salt filled the air from the highly salted, yet still covered in snow streets, and the sound of cars driving by made me reminiscent of being at the beach. As the car got closer, it sounded like a wave rolling up to the shore, while the seagulls flew above making their seabird sounds. The pish posh sounds of our feet in the sludgy snowing the road sounded like the sound of feet on damp sand after the wave has settled. If only video could capture the smell along with the sounds. It was a beautiful day after the snow stopped. Even though it was still b elow freezing, it was sunny and nice out. Like a cool day on the boardwalk.
Anyway, back to the reality that we are in a blizzard...cars? what cars? It's hard to believe that there are cars on the road and we are actually a "civilized" people. Coming home after being stuck at work for 23 hours was actually one of the stupidest things I think I've ever done. Thanks to the guys that helped me when I got stuck and pulled me out with a chain! Sorry to the people in the uhaul towing their van on the back. the van swung out and got stuck in a snow bank...but what can a tiny, recalled toyota do to help?
Once again, thanks to our 4 legged adorable friends, to whom their little snow trails saved me calories burned from walking 1 mile home from the parking garage, since the streets around my place weren't even touched last night. what a nightmare! the main roads were horrible and the thought of having gone through so much to get home and to be 2 blocks away and not able to get there...not even able to park anywhere near...my heart dropped.
yet, what a beautiful site, with the snow covering large portions of the trees with the street lights illuminating them. Sorry, didn't a drive by shot from the cell cam would do it any justice, and having walked 1 hour to get home after working a 23 hour shift with no sleep, getting the 10megapx for 1 shot....well....last night, it just wasn't worth it.
To the running guy on pratt, who took a pic on penn? street, what a joyful encounter! and then at the harbor...if i had run like you, maybe i would have been on my way back when you were! however, got some good shots also, nonetheless!
charmcitypix.com
http://www.charmcitypix.com/g/downtown

In a State of

2009-03-04T16:12:00.004-05:00

waiting

The Sloan Auto Flush Toilet

2009-01-26T20:16:00.001-05:00

So, is it just me, or is anyone else fed up with those automatic toilets that flush before you are done your business?
BTW, great toilet pic, hu!

r we human, or r we dancer?

2009-01-21T20:50:00.003-05:00

onward bound...
the Killers are a little less appealing today as the dreams of yesterday are smashed up on the rocks. no, i'm not saying i like the Killers music less, just that the reason why it was so magical for me no longer exists.
and, life goes on, and we move on.
hark! hark!
the doorbell rings, the kitchen is filled with an inviting aroma and ...life goes on...

Lazy Sick Day

2009-01-15T21:40:00.005-05:00

atleast i got a lot of rest today, but still not feeling even remotely close to 100%. will probably take one more day tomorrow as this weekend is, once again, filled with action.
wish i could have a lazy day with someone special.
funny how after such an incredible victory, comes that Elijah moment after Mt. Carmel, running for his life. think i actually like when life is hard, b/c i want to grow so much. it's hard to grow when there is nothing going on.
wish i had someone to grow with. is that the medicine talking?

it can't rain all the time

2009-01-08T21:18:00.004-05:00

just a lil flash back from the movie that line came from.
a shower of wonder, soon it will be over. more memories made, living out a dream, soon about to wake. so, we had a small time of Camelot. after the madness, will there be peace? or is it the peace found within the madness that's so highly treasured?
man is like a breath, his days are a fleeting shadow...
so, for a few months, i got to live out a dream. i don't want to wake up, but i have no choice.
ramblings. so much on my heart. so many on my heart.

Check Your Passwords Against Brute Force Attacks

2008-11-03T09:31:00.002-05:00

this is a cool site i stumbled upon from life hacker.
Hackosis' Brute Force Calculator.
Check my password!
here are the results of one of my favored passwords!
Your password is 11 characters long and has 1,411,670,956,533,760 combinations.
It takes 5,135.63 hours or 213.98 days to crack your password on computer that tries 137,438,953,472 passwords per hour. This is based on a typical PC processor in 2008 and that the processor is under 10% load.

2008 Presidential Election

2008-11-03T07:17:00.007-05:00

OK, so we are down to the line with tomorrow being the day of truth for people to cast their thoughts in stone at the polls.
Above is an interesting thing i'd like to call opportunity? So, if i vote one way and put my money on another, guess it just calls me a gambler. the "what if" factor is the driving force...evil driving force behind this scheming. but what if McCain wins? at the present time that's $89/share! If this was as popular as it could be, we could get into a moral issue for this election. driving down McCains stock and voting for him to get a quick fattening of the pocket would be a sneaky underscheme if you ask me. but, could it be a trixy underground ploy for major investors? if someone invested $55,000.00 in McCain (which they would probably consider chump change) and McCain wins, they now gain $445,000.00, giving them a grand total of $500,000.00 in their ever expanding pockets! that's a little over an 800% gain! WTF!
you know what...my bad! it's cents! but, even so, it's still worth the effort. ok, so let's just go with an even $50k. that's roughly 8 shares per dollar invested. so...$50k*8=400,000 shares*$.89 increase/share=$356,000.00 gain if McCain wins. that's still nothing to scoff at!

!FREE CODES! McDonald's® MONOPOLY 2008

2008-10-28T07:37:00.015-05:00

Here are 3 FREE MULTIUSER CODES for the online game:
(copy and paste is the way!)
I6L6V4N4T2
WN100KADAY
PLSC0M3BAK
______________________________________________________
Enjoy!

Above is a compilation of the actual winning pieces.
So, if you get one of these, Congratulations! You're a bonafide weener! getting the other pieces is the easy part.

Camera's in hotel rooms?

2008-09-30T22:47:00.008-05:00

So, i'm up and paranoid, wondering if the smoke alarm, digital clock, wall picture or coffee maker are rigged with a hidden camera. i'm afraid the person watching would be grossly upset with the lack of action during my stay here, but i can't stop thinking about it when it's shower time or when nature calls. not that i don't want to sleep...i just finished working a 13.5 hour day and would love to be knocked out about now....anyway...
After having that nastiness on the sheets upon arrival, and this being a cheaper, but still catering to the working professional hotel chain, i'm not sure what to think. perhaps the free plane ticket i will get after staying here b/c i've been a recurring guest with this chain isn't worth this quality and will try a new chain w/another rewards card next trip.

sorry, i wasn't going to post that, but...hehehe...i actuall really like the pic, color and composition even though it's got the nastiness on the left and the towel i slept on so it wouldn't touch me in the middle, with the glorius glow of the MAC to the right. long story, but i have new sheets tonight!
Soooo, here are the suspcious objects in question:
Here is the alarm clock with a huge face
smoke detector with a huge hole...i got up on a chair and it is shiny like a lens. some articles said they can stuff up to 5 cameras up there to get a 360 view...
the hole in the framed wall art...like who framed roger rabbit, but no eyes will come out and knock a bottle over - hahaha!!! that scene cracked me up when that movie came out!
the innocent looking coffee maker!
and last, but certainly not least...the inocent mood lighting wall light. i haven't used it yet and i don't plan on it out of laziness. it would require getting out of bed to turn it off....and it's not a clapper (i just tried)...so, i have to live with the harsh Fluorescent glow...ugh.
well...that's that.

Vikings Pillaged for Wives?

2008-09-28T07:55:00.005-05:00

After hearing this on a radio game show, it hit me deep inside and made me feel a strange compassion for these men, who were deemed as some of the most horrible people ever. However, it makes sense when you think about all of our needs collectively, as human beings...which disregards culture/perspective/location...etc. the desire for a family/companionship/status. All i can think of is...how strong was that testosterone?! They sound like they were a very passionate people with such a determination and display of eagerness to be suitably acceptable for a woman. It was said that the vikings held up women with much esteem, besides the fact that men had free reign and could do whatever he pleased. In our day and age, men use such things as fancy cars, impressive jobs or portfolios, talents, even cooking or domestic skills. a much more civilized way of setting up a love nest than taking human life, but are we still seeing the same marks of the viking culture in our men (and some women) today with regards to faithfulness/monogamy? However, is this all for personal gain....to say, i have a woman! and not for love? If this is true, then it's no wonder why we have so many divorces, as the marriage begins and ends on a selfish note, even though there was the beginnings of what could have been so beautiful.
The responsibility of the man is quite a heavy one, but when it all comes down to it, if you're truly in love, none of that stuff matters if you truly commit to stick it out to the end, no matter how you may or may not feel from day to day, your financial situation or your talents. i'd still rather be "happily" married to a poor penniless sitar player than a great big rich maharajah! [Moulin Rouge]
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During the Viking Age from the late eighth to the mid-eleventh centuries, Scandinavians tore across Europe attacking, robbing and terrorizing locals. According to a new study, the young warriors were driven to seek their fortunes to better their chances of finding wives.
The odd twist to the story, said researcher James Barrett, is that it was the selective killing of female newborns that led to a shortage of Scandinavian women in the first place, resulting later in intense competition over eligible women.Barrett's analysis of Nordic historical records found that Scandinavian men often served as warriors, frequently forming "military brotherhoods," until they were able to marry and establish their own households, which were key to prestige and power.
Full article

According to Barrett, honor and religious fatalism — the idea that the time and manner of death is predestined — also fueled the Vikings, helping explain why men were willing to risk death in violent battles and risky seafaring. The Viking religion held that "the cosmos began in the frozen emptiness ... and will end in fire with the last battle," said Barrett.

Despite the infanticide, he still believes the Vikings "highly valued" women. Aside from lavishing bridal prospects with plundered goods, they held solemn burials at sea for women. In fact, one of the most important known Viking Age burials, involved numerous goods and two female skseltons encased in a ship called the Oseberg.

Soren Sindbaek, assistant professor of medieval and Renaissance archaeology at Denmark's University of Aarhus, told Discovery News that the new paper "is very right in pointing out the inadequacy" of former explanations for the Viking Age.

For the full article click here.

Solar Cycle 24 - signs of a coming ice age?

2008-09-28T06:49:00.009-05:00

This is the new sunspot officially marking the beginning of Solar Cycle 24.

Below is part of an article that talks about the technological effects that Cycle 24 can have on us, not to mention another mini ice age. When i first heard about 1 man fighting the world saying that we don't have to worry about global warming b/c an ice age is coming soon, it piqued my interest to investigate...which i put off until seeing this image on (shhhh) yahoo! So, if things are as they appear to be, perhaps switching to solar energy would be a smart move. [personally - If it continues to get colder and BGE (or soon to be Constellation - which i am slightly happy about being that this months BGE bill was $0! but who knows their plans once they take over), our heating bills are going to go through the roof!]
So, i'm interested in seeing how our modernized world will deal with this issue and how/if life as usual will be affected and how long it will take for it to become known. will a debate break off into global warming vs ice age groups? what about Al Gores efforts with An Inconvenient Truth: Global Warming Effect?
Anyway...

Here's part of the article:
The onset of a new solar cycle is significant because of our increasingly space-based technological society.

"Solar storms can disable satellites that we depend on for weather forecasts and GPS navigation," says Hathaway. Radio bursts from solar flares can directly interfere with cell phone reception while coronal mass ejections (CMEs) hitting Earth can cause electrical power outages. "The most famous example is the Quebec outage of 1989, which left some Canadians without power for as much as six days."

Air travel can be affected, too.[warfi!]

Every year, intercontinental flights carry thousands of passengers over Earth’s poles. It's the shortest distance between, say, New York and Tokyo or Beijing and Chicago. In 1999, United Airlines made just twelve trips over the Arctic. By 2005, the number of flights had ballooned to 1,402. Other airlines report similar growth.

"Solar storms have a big effect on polar regions of our planet," says Steve Hill of the Space Weather Prediction Center. "When airplanes fly over the poles during solar storms, they can experience radio blackouts, navigation errors and computer reboots all caused by space radiation." Avoiding the poles during solar storms solves the problem, but it costs extra time, money and fuel to "take the long way around."

Now for the good news: More solar storms also means more auroras—"the greatest show on Earth." During the last solar maximum, Northern Lights were spotted as far south as Arizona, Florida and California. Not so long ago, only visitors to the Arctic regularly enjoyed auroras, but with increasing attention to space weather and constantly improving forecasts, millions of people at all latitudes will know when to go out and look.

Here are a few good links:
Solar Cycle 24: Implications for the United States
The Deniers: Our spotless sun this article has pretty cool information about how art and literature was effected in previous cycles that brought on mini ice ages.

slow destruction?

2008-09-27T13:40:00.003-05:00

oy...if there was no hope, why even bother trying?

Bugs!

2008-09-06T02:00:00.003-05:00

it's 3am and my roomate and i are preparing for the pigtown fest tomorrow....in a few hours.
i finally finished and am ready to crash, but then, as i went to turn out the light.....
zzzzzzziiiiiiiiiiiiiiippppppppppp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the dark blotch that i thought was my hairball darted acrossed the floor......
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
being that it was really big, i had to get rid of it before sleeping.
i tried to crush it with a glass bowl - my poor sleeping roomate under me - and it ran into my victoria's secret minibag.
as scared as i was, i quickly closed it with the weight of my entire body, holding a slipper as to make sure i wouldn't be too close to touching it. once i felt safe that it was trapped, i folded the opening like a present and sealed that bad boy with a wad of duct tape!
i could hear the lil guy runnin around in there. i'm hoping it will die so i can have my underwear.
i'm actually a little too excited to go to sleep after that action...knowing that i shouldn't yell at 3am....ECHO helped with that. atleast it wasn't a spider the size of a tarantua! that was WACK!
anyway...baltimore is jumpin with sirens tonight.
i hope that tomorrow will go well.
i hope to see some familiar faces tomorrow.
i hope everything sells!
here goes, the 1st show!

Random Thoughts

2008-08-24T21:21:00.003-05:00

1) My hair is getting really long. i can't wait for it to get past my butt!
2) Do i really want to get a 2010 Camaro? I might get speeding tickets b/c flooring it to feel the torque will be irresistible!
3) I am flourishing on my bed. it sounds odd, and could provoke negative thoughts, but to me it makes sense, since i never slept as a kid and was advised by a medical professional to do whatever i wanted as long as i kept quiet while everyone slept. so, now, i think it seems an inviting place for me to relax, study, work and unwind. i have the exercise bands dangling from the top bunk, the geetar close at hand, the MAC and all its wonderful resources, and good ol' fashioned books all around. it is my entertainment center, if you want to call it that. i really enjoy my room!
4) this remote is great! i wish i could repeat just this CD. i'm feeling too lazy to program it to.
5) i hope i don't forget my cell phone tomorrow morning.
6) maybe its time to wear socks to bed. i'll try tonight to see if that helps with the morning issue.
7) will i be able to keep going to work at 6am, or will i have to wait to go in later with this new position? guess it won't matter, as i'll have to stay late anyway. we'll see. if i keep going in at 6am i'll get lots more overtime!
8) i want an 8 hour massage!
9) is my brain resisting new information? or just forced information? fickle thing
10) man, my hair is really long.
11) i hope 4 more classes won't take more than 1 or 2 years. i'd really like to start programming for money soon!

never can remember

2008-07-17T14:29:00.001-05:00

i always have these (hehe) "brilliant" ideas, but then i forget when i get here...like...now.
oh well...i'll try again later.

CEO

2008-06-29T16:33:00.006-05:00

i sit here looking gazing out the middle window. Far in the back, i see traffic racing back and forth on the ramp to 95 from MLK Blvd. techno is jamming and i have tissue shoved up my nose to catch the faucet-on-type drip of the lasting phaze of this crazed flu...which i dodged for about 2 years? so, guess this was pay up week!
so, i feel like the CEO of my own world, which can have limitless possibilities.
CEO of what? i'm not quite sure, but i feel it in my bones...like a calling. i don't care if i'm liked, yet i would like to have a few good friends/confidants. However, grateful for the current friends/roomates! and, of course, past roomates who moved onto receiving their permanent roomates.
the remote control for the A/C unit provides limitless amusement and brings about a regal satisfaction that i'm somehow special b/c i can be extremely lazy. lovin the cathedral ceilings that slant to a normal height and the spaciousness that could house a small family all in the quaint comfort of...my room.
Man...if only i was married! - side tracked thought.
somewhere out there...as i watch hundreds...thousands of people fly by my window in microscopic form.
the best is to see one of those viscious all-of-the-sudden storms from my 3 connected windows. how majestic to see over a large range of land and the great bolts of lightning so close.
i will continue to argue that life is so strange...

safe inside

2008-06-25T04:50:00.006-05:00

got to remain within the realm.
got to hope and trust within the realm of safety and provision.
can't step out of the safe zone.
charm is sooo deceiving.
beauty is fleeting.
mans wisdom is beneath His foolishness.
i've been given so much.

alter of sacrifice
offer with joy - dead weight

whatever was my gain, i now consider loss

if i die

2008-06-08T08:00:00.013-05:00

if i died, maybe i might be missed for a moment...then life continues as normal.
i wonder how many people think that.
And with the suicide rate being @2/week in Japan...i wonder.
everyone there that is looking for an easy, painless way out may have found it.
this is heart breaking. this is also highly disturbing.
sure, the thought passes my mind...but gotta take that bad boy captive!
that's a dangerous thought.
i wish i could say that it's not a powerful thought to the people who think it, but stories and reality would prove me wrong.
yes, life is rough and can be hauntingly sad...
but we have hope!
i could preach to you, but i'd rather you have a powerful encounter of your own.
i wish i could save the world from all the fear, pain and sadness, but it's already been done.
i wish i could bring people to that hope...
i wish i could do it where i am in baltimore, **hanover** and silver spring...wherever!!
**i wish i could bring it back to the underground**

however, knowing that i'm no longer cool and realizing that my life is not too successful - worldly speaking, and seeing how closed and self-preservant/protected-thick-skinned-wall-of-freakin-armor society has become
and the most important of them all
- i can't change anyone - AT ALL...
it's gonna take a bona-fide miracle :)
but you know what?!

I BELIEVE IN MIRACLES!!!!!!!

Man, i love the internet! and a rant on gas prices, and Daniel McConnell

2008-06-03T16:01:00.007-05:00

life can be so much easier with the internet...but it can also make you lazy and a recluse if your not too careful.
however, being that gas prices are soaring like a m*f*rrrrrr......any errand that can be done via the internet is well worth the time u take droning into the glowing screen.
However, i still love hikin' around on the 2 feet i have, while they are still good, and livin' in the city provides plenty of opportunity for it!
i feel really bad for those people that are paying over $100 for a fill up at the gas stations.
maybe that guy dan from 98rock this morning will get a new car donated to him.
and the sound of the 3 cylinder that gets @50 highway epa...oh yeah...will the sacrifice of horsepower matter compared to the hole in the wallet?
from 98 rock this morning, check out
www.danielsbigtrip.blogspot.com
Daniel McConnell
here you go, the blurb taken from 98 rocks site:
Daniel McConnell is a 30-year-old former Army helicopter pilot, who lost his right arm when his Apache Helicopter crashed in Afghanistan.
Daniel just finished his first year of medical school, so he figures it is time for an adventure. He has decided to drive across the country in a
1984 Chevy Suburban with 230,000 miles on it, to meet the people and see the country that he dedicated 11 years of his life protecting.
No agendas. Just a Veteran, his truck, a dog, and the United States.
Daniel stopped by the show on Monday on his way up North.
If you would like to keep track of Daniel's progress, and donate some money to help him with gas and food, click here.

stuck in the 90's?

2008-06-01T20:58:00.006-05:00

so, i just found some of my old tapes from high school days.
i watched the 1992 Mtv music awards again...wow. it explains a lot about me, i think.
the other day at work, the guy i may be working with soon said that his jazz station just went off the air...so, what did i listen to on the radio?
i said i usually like 98rock. he goes,"Oh! Your a rocker!"
it never hit me until then, and then watching that videoTAPE...yes, a VHS, made it all that much more clear to me.
later, i found a tape of Pauly Shore, Pearl Jam unplugged, Nirvana, the Cure, and other Greats of the late 80's, 90's.
it's amazing that they were my heros...they were the people who i followed and learned about life from in my teen years. with no dad to help me, they were the next best thing. ugh. not ideal role models, man!
when Mtv actually played music videos and had interviews with rock stars.
no wonder i don't have any cooth or shame.
i'm perplexed about a lot of things lately.
where are these so called "hero's" now?
what's gonna happen to them?
is Kurt Cobain really dead?
i wanted to be a rock star and i set my life to attain that goal. the long haired guys...the mosh pits, the head banging...
Honus isn't even there yet, but he seems like he's real close and he's been jamming a long time...and he can rock the set!
i REALLY wasn't supposed to be a rock star. if Honus hasn't broken through yet...there would have been no hope for me!
a few gigs here, a time to party there...and now...reality and practicality set in even deeper as the next generation starts taking the baton that i've been fumbling with.
however, one thing i know...i lived the rock-n-roll lifestyle for a short blip in time. and they can't take that away from me!
now, i see that my day is over, my time has past. it's time to move on to new pastures.
it's amazing the music that tries to define a generation.
of course, we had all sorts and underground stuff, but the grunge got me...tooth and nail! hehe....dokken - remember that band! hahahahaha....
and then, the rave scene...but that's another story!
i'm getting old and i'm starting to feel old.
sooner or later, i'm going to die~

Something beautiful

2008-06-01T20:51:00.003-05:00

So, i've been meaning to blog about this...many things actually, but this first.
the other day as i was walking on my usual route by the water i saw something that really touched me.
on the edge of the water there was this really small boned beautiful blonde girl.
she was there with a young man in a wheel chair. as i walked their way, i saw her taking care of him and just looking like she was really enjoying her time with him. when i passed them, i heard her say,"Oh! Your so cold!" and i heard the sound of a blanket being settled. my first thought was...what a beautiful young lady...she could be with anyone she probably would want to be with, and she seems to be in love with this man who may never be able to ...you know.
what a beautiful young lady outside and, seeming, inside.
seeing them was so touching!
on the way back from my long walk, i saw them just leaving the area where they were enjoying one another.
it was a few hours later.
i wanted to take a picture of them for here, but i didn't know if that would be offensive to them...or, i just didn't know what to think.
all i know is that seeing them really touched me.
i wonder...what happened? has he always been like that, or was he in an accident?
i wanted to know their story.

well...

2008-05-15T15:13:00.002-05:00

it is truly offensive to our generation if you take a stand to believe in something so strongly, that it's worth becomes more valuable to you than your own comforts, thoughts, boundaries/or lack of boundaries, strongest feelings and desires.

too good

2008-05-09T22:45:00.006-05:00

too smart for me own good....
ugh, me thinx me's gonna hurl!
and i don't even have a college degree....HA HA! Sucka!
i'm sure dat tracka gonna raise an eyebrow shortly!
so, now what?
there's obviously no reason to wait around...but there's nothing in the bowl.
time to wait for dat miracle! i keep hearin 'bout it...comin from here and there...the gentle whisper of my hearts desire...is in the wind again.
don't know where, don't know how, but it's there again.
continuously forced to live by faith.

sad

2008-04-12T06:41:00.003-05:00

the saddest thing i saw in France was Sunday morning, bright and early.
As we walked up to wait for the metro, from acrossed the tracks a lady sat, still hunched over in a sleeping position with her stuff to the right and left of her and her long cane on the seat to the left of her. i saw her shaking, but not because she was cold...then, my ears filled me in on the rest of the story. she sat there crying. crying so hard and so loud, not holding back.
what went wrong? what happened? that's all that was going through my mind. what tragedy begot her that she has ended up in this place and in this position? will she pull out? will she be alright? is this all there is for her until she dies?

she

2008-04-10T23:50:00.006-05:00

maybe this looks like a gawdy post card

she shimmers every now and then for everyone to see
yet every glance reveals that she is vulnerable and open
everywhere eyes are looking, exploring, lurking
inside, outside, around, over, under, through
she gives all that she has for
our entertainment
our enjoyment
our inspiration
i feel as if i've robbed her after taking from her
us tourists are truly like dirty men taking advantage of innocent beauty
they give all they have and the best of what they got
in exchange for...nothing
the wind blows and the time passes, yet she remains as if in waiting, standing tall and proud.

Paris '08

2008-04-10T22:59:00.002-05:00

Just wanted to share some of my favorite pics

This is the crowd of people looking at the Mona Lisa. i love how the people on the right seem to flow out of the painting behind them.

These clouds were awesome!!!

post cardish

same

gotta throw in the tower!

Paris and the rubix mini

2008-04-09T21:08:00.005-05:00

So, yet another story from the subway of Paris.
The doors open and in pops this young guy with longish blonde hair holding a rubix cube mini..rather on the beginnings of bohemian lifestyle.
He gently utters a few words to a beautiful young girl sitting on the flip seat and begins twisting and turning the cube quickly. as the train stops and the doors open, the cube spins faster and faster in is hands.
Just as the alarm sounds signaling the closing of the doors, he displays a solved cube and slowly takes a gracious step backwards outside of the train while the doors close right after.
a perfectly timed fantasy of a valiant young man. is he a romantic or just a great showman?!
perhaps i'm the romantic?
it left that haunting feeling deep inside...
these are the moments that make Paris magical for me!

Rant and Rave

2008-03-19T15:39:00.013-05:00

A full cart of liquids
(that's the woman that stopped to help me while on her cell) Whoops...this is what happens when wheel bite occurs - check that nasty divet under the cart!! luckily, no cars were coming to run over the liquids that were purchased on someone elses card!!!
the free appetizer
so, this is the rant and rave. this is the 2 slices of CHEESE pizza from Mamma Lucia's in Silver Spring. b/c they do not serve slices of pizza after 5pm, you have to get it to go. As if a whole pizza is any classier that a slice of pizza! COME ON - IT'S PIZZA, FOR CRYIN OUT LOUD! the quality is no better than that wonderful greasy, cheesy boardwalk pizza that you can get for a buck a slice...and it even tastes better that this 2-dollar and fiddy cent pizza (it might have even been more...the merlot was $9, and the final bill came out to 15-n-a lotta change! denying food because of an image you are trying to convey.
OK....zagat rated, i don't care! i'm going to start a service rating! how it tastes and is presented may be one thing to you, since this is america, but service and accomodation will make me a lifetime customer! that's the Egalitarian way! although, in France...you can't have it your way...as experienced from a denial of crepe b/c of the ingredient request of bacon, egg, cheese and nutella. it was about the sweet and salty man!
NOW! ABOUT DUNKIN DONUTS!
ok...so, it's not about their food...once again, it's about the service. i hate being "that" customer that makes the workers cringe when they enter the store. especially service jobs, having done customer service involving food for a number of years in my teens and some 20's, this was a disturbing experience. mostly b/c the girl serving me couldn't pull out of the unhappy situation. she asks what i want, and i tell her ,"2 doz bagels, and 2 dozen donuts".
she then asks me what kind of cream cheese i want and i say,"regular and strawberry." then, i proceed to ask what other flavors there are.
she answers,"we have others."
i ask again,"What other flavors are there?
she goes,"We have 4".
so, it was time to say,"What are they?!" from that point on, i was "THAT" customer. the basic point is, listen closely and respond approriately. if there is a misunderstanding, pull out of it quickly, it's not worth ruining your whole shift over. what makes it worse, is that i showed up at 6:30am, so her shift had probably just gotten started. poor girl. well, she has one more chance to let it go tomorrow morning when i show up again asking for 2 doz bagels and 2 doz donuts! hahaha....
so, between that and the ill-setting pizza denial...and then it was mixed with a lil pms and being slain in the mind to the heart from the prince from another kingdom...tues was a real winner of a day!
however, it was redeemed that night with an incredible encounter with God! it's amazing how crud from the day disappears so suddenly when your with Him! tuesdays craziness and chaos were a great reminder of how broken, sick and needy i am of the perfect love for me!

pondering thought

2008-03-12T22:50:00.008-05:00

i work at a good company, but my position and pay are not admirable.
(meaning that i don't have a powerful, respected job/a lot of money)
i haven't done anything to change the course of human kind.
i don't use my brain to work rocket science.
my life is nothing special to most people. i think i even just failed my final in pc repair...
what is all that anyway, but a mere mirage...certainly not anything to be defined by!
Most of my dreams and desires will probably not come true.
yet, i live well. i live rich. my life is full of unspeakable riches!
when i die, i will have peace b/c i lived this one little life well.
moment by moment, decision by decision.

How to get your car towed - crash course in adventure! (it's all about your perspective~)

2008-03-07T23:59:00.009-05:00

After a little wine, and a good evening with friends, it's now time to end b/c you realize that you need to get up early the next day. However, coming out to the parking lot knowing that the drive home is about 45 minutes-1hour highway distance - not seeing your car could be a little disturbing!
However, if your gonna get your car towed, this is how to do it! when you are with people that know the ropes and your federal income tax made its grand entrance into your checking account, this is the beginning of a beautiful adventure!!!
1) Johnny knew before we even got to the parking lot that my car was towed
2) The phone number was on the sign
3) the place was @1/2hr away, but still open even though it was late at night!
4) Other wheels and people were available to join in on and assist the adventure!
5) Nicole becomes Arwin, Grace Samwise and i become Frodo.
6) Wonderfully, our friend Fernando lives in Rockville, a couple streets down from the impounding place where Buddy lies. Emmanuel is chillin with him making a video for our party next week.
7) We travel past the sign that tells us how fast we are going, into the road that's made of brick, under the bridge and out pops Fernando and Emanuel!
8) At the car lot, we enter a little room with an older lady and younger guy. i have compassion on this old lady b/c i'm sure she has to deal with some pretty irate people at unfavorable hours of the night. However, we were very happy and in good spirits, laughing and n-joying being together, even under this testy circumstance.
9) i looked over to see Emmanuel standing guard at the window watching closely for the safety of Grace and Nicole! How valiant!
10) i pay the fee and jump back into Nicoles car to follow the guy a block away to "the yard" - pic above.
11) The yard is dark, dingy and muddy from today's showers and behind a gated fence...typical to a movie where everything seems normal until that one turn, or whatever..just a whole new environment!
12) Collect Buddy, drop off the guys, collaborate with Nicole and Grace about who gets to take Grace home, get directions and part ways.
It was like clockwork! What could have been a terrible ending to a wonderful evening, turned out to be a smoothly executed ad-libbed adventure! What a wonderful beginning to more adventures to come in Silver Spring!

The Sock Theory

2008-03-01T17:37:00.006-05:00

(still in the making - here is something to chew on for now)
Every sock is looking for its match. Some are found right away, but others have to wait, always gazing deeply into the pile of clothes waiting for that match to turn up, but always knowing that there is a match somewhere in that pile.
It doesn't matter if it's right side out or inside out, it sits and waits with hope. As the pile gets smaller and smaller, there's a subtle anxiety that seems to permeate the air.
Thoughts of loss and worry quickly come to surface.
There's always a small chance that a slight jealousy could sneak in when watching the others rejoicing in the beginning when their pairs are found quickly.
Sometimes, doubt may fill the sock and leave it wondering if its match was lost, hence, putting it out of normal commission.
Some wonder if its match is lost, but is filled with joy when the match is fished out from the muck!  However, there are those that have casualties. Those whom remember the days of running happily with its match, but now know that it will never see it again, or still wonders if it will ever turn up.
Sometimes, they will join up with another sock that looked like its match, or one that is completely different, but it will never be the same.

More ramblings - little annoyances

2008-03-01T17:18:00.005-05:00

i stand there waiting for the little separator to be placed before placing my items down on the conveyor belt. the little girl ahead of me is in a daze and her ma/grandma keeps firmly telling her to pay attention, stop fooling around, make yourself useful and help! she used the order separator for a fun intrigue to separate the things she wanted and the cashier is getting confused. she removes it and leaves me hanging again. finally, i took the initiative and grabbed the thing and put it down. as i was returning to my cart from squeezing in between it to grab the section break thingy, the person behind me is trying to take my place in line??? but, i'm not going to argue. i'm not trying to get my butt wacked at a grocery store in the ghetto! hehe...

Randomness Tax deduction American Idol Mcskillet burrito?

2008-02-29T15:00:00.006-05:00

So, this is going to be all around random. (the title includes some of today's top searches on xx search engine. go figure! looking for it all - $, food, and entertainment)
1st, Greg doesn't have to go to Iraq! He's getting shipped somewhere in the americas! yeah! i can't remember which state he said, and he will be able to finish his class! YEAH!
2nd...thank God for TDY!
if some happen to return?
let go and trust...lose your life to find it. the time is now. i'm ready. thank God for TDY! thank God for TDY!
who can be defined by life when life offers no definition? it's got to be more, my friend...like i told your buddy - owe baby, baby it's a wild world! be careful out there, bro. if only you could have experienced that guy on the subway in France w/the things i've seen and done as a back thought on top of this brilliant display of expression. that was more than cool!
the doors opened, he jumps on w/an acoustic guitar and starts jamming Cat Stevens "Wild World", belting it out in english! train stops, song ends, he gets out. it was completely surreal! beautifully executed. were we the only people who knew what he was singing?
i should be on the way to Silver Spring, b/c i hate traffic. but 2:00 was just insanely too early for a 7pm meetup. one can only work out for so long before collapsing! and the Count of Monte Cristo is just in a tough spot right now.
yes, i'm still monitoring.
why are you still coming here? me thoughts you would have long forgotten us...we'll see, we'll see. it's all good. gotta see for yourself, hu?
a lot of things that make one go hmmmm.....
ps. i'm 32 now.

Iraq

2008-02-25T22:11:00.003-05:00

(pic to come shortly)
The war in Iraq never quite hit me too deeply until now.
In my pc repair class there is this young guy named Greg. At first, he just seemed like a regular young guy with lots of character. the teacher picked on him in a fun way, and he just brought a lot of entertainment to the class...in an amusing way. i first took him for a linux geek, which actually is not a bad thing. it's highly admired, in my eyes. i wanted to know about him, not romantically, but just, as a person, he seemed really interesting. i waited and waited before class, a small chunk of our class sat outside waiting and would talk before the doors opened to our room. it would never be too deep, but i just kept listening and waiting and once in a while would step in and try to spread a little love. then, one day, Greg brought up that he might be drafted again to go to Iraq after he had already served. when i looked at him, he had a serious look that i couldn't ignore and commanded an ear. i acknowledged his comment and he shared stories from Iraq that pretty much broke my heart. the look in his eyes were unexplainable. i don't know him very well, but my heart went out to him in this circumstance. how devastating.
today, in class, he gave me a look as i was walking back to my chair during lab time, but i wasn't sure that he had something to say, so i kept walking...but he commanded my attention and went to the heart of his concern. he told me he had just received the call to report for active duty this friday. how could anything else be anymore important than to hear this young man's heart and see the look of dread and unexplanable emotions when i looked into his eyes.
we all have our flaws, and Greg has his issues, but...what a precious life. i will definitely be praying for this young man. the feelings of helplessness could overwhelm me and make me very sad, but that's why i'm so grateful for prayer...b/c prayer accomplishes what is impossible for us to do. God, keep Your hand on Greg's life and reveal Your love to Him in this time of chaos. Bring Your peace to fill his heart, mind, body and soul. What a precious life, what a precious young man.

Top 10 Driving Phrases with blurb

2008-02-13T21:44:00.039-05:00

I'd love to hear your thoughts/comments below about something you like to say while driving, or would add to the top 10 list if you could.

10) If your lost, drive like your not!
9) USE YOUR BLINKER, MAN!! or ["Nice turn signal!" said with HEAVY sarcasm] (not using your blinker brings confusion and wastes other peoples time, and yours - but most people don't usually think that far into it while they are driving)
8) Your going to get yourself killed! or, your going to get us killed!!! - for those who are scared, or just driving slow when merging onto major freeways going 20-30mph
7) Pick a lane! (for those who drive in between lanes)
6) STAY IN YOUR LANE! - for those who drift into your lane when you drive by them
5) AHHHH! Open road!! (when there are no cars in front/back of me far as thee i can see)
4) Come in, Buddy, come in! If you have your blinker on and your trying to merge onto the freeway/audubon, keep an eye out on the drivers and car lights/horn...they may be trying to let you in! so, pay attention and be ready to merge!!!!
3) Ya missed it! Ya non-driver! (for the person trying to merge, but not paying attention to the traffic to know whether to gun it, coast or break into the flow of traffic and missing a perfect opportunity)
2) Skinny pedal on the right!
1) GET OFF YOUR CELL PHONE AND DRIVE!!!!! aka. i love you man, but you gotta get off of the road!

***********!!!!!!!DRIVE TO SURVIVE!!!!!!!***********
PAY ATTENTION!
BE ALERT!
BE CONSCIENTIOUS!
THINK AND ADAPT!
STOP USING YOUR CELL PHONE AND DRIVE!!!!
IT'S NOT PERSONAL, EVERYONE HAS PROBLEMS AND IT'S MOST LIKELY NOT BECAUSE OF YOU...YOU JUST HAPPEN TO BE THE OBJECT OF SOMEONE'S WRATH AT THE MOMENT WHEN THEY ARE BEHIND THE WHEEL!
LIFE IS TOO SHORT!

Also, don't you just love when you get behind those people driving below the speed limit with their right arm around the passenger seat head rest? Or the person who is digging around in their car while driving, hence, causing their automobile to have eratic speeds and swirving? Upon seeing that, i know there will be a fun time ahead if not in "chill" mode...which happens rarely.
I think we are afraid to look at other people when we are driving now a days b/c of the stories we hear about people that shoot others, taking road rage to a new level.
It's funny that I used to teach driver's ed, and if i didn't think the student was competent enough to drive, i would fail them and they would have to practice more before going for a provisional. My boss, however, was very unhappy about this b/c customers became irate that it wasn't an easy -pass-. Being that these students (unfortunately, it was mainly the older people -60 and above- and foreigners that spoke no english) were going to be driving in my neighborhood, i REALLY didn't want to meet up with them on the road somewhere if they couldn't control the car, even with me helping them.
Just in case you're wondering, those days are over!

Thanks to Thumbtack.com!

High Pitched Scream Tubing - da lovely Jess!

2008-02-12T20:02:00.001-05:00

Flip it!

2008-02-05T22:12:00.000-05:00

if it's so easy to see what's wrong with people, it's also just as easy to believe the promises of God for them also!
Just flip that function...rewire...it's possible!
ahhh...the smell of my roomates bread from the toaster is wonderful!
there was a hole in the blackness that fell away like a frail piece of ragidy cloth that crumbles like ash. a whole kingdom was on the outside and hands were pulling out and into a wonderful, rich, warm place... who could have imagined that it could be so good that everything from the past was dissolved away in the midst of the beauty and love?

The Cheesysteak!

2008-01-30T00:16:00.001-05:00

YUM!!!!!!!
The reason for the demise of the vegetarian lifesty...eating habit!
Awe, the cheesy greasiness!
i know, i know...disgusting, right?
well...life is short as is...the older we get, the faster time seems to go by....1 year, 2 years, 3 years, 4...before you know it, your looking back on 10-20-30-40...years and realizing that the end is drawing nearer than before!
this got deep quick, and the only point was to simply say...a li-l cheesysteak indulgence won't hurt!
(that is, unless you eat infected meat...but then again, you could have gotten e-coli on that bad broccoli). You just neva know...

Linux Guru!

2008-01-29T16:38:00.002-05:00

Can the linux guru find me? ha, ha, ha!
Here i am guru! will you take the red pill?
ok, ok, i guess i should start blogging about something that people actually care about?
i sit here foolin around on the mac while installing linux fedora core 3.0 onto a dinosaur 486!
7 more DVD's to install for the full package and the bluetooth on the razr decides to become grumpy with the mac and will not play nice. humph! So, the pics will have to wait until they can kiss and make up.
tomorrow is going to be a strong coffee day...the pattern of consuming this legal drug begins again as crazy schedule resumes.
it could be a little less...but...we'll see...it's only @1.5 months of wackness.
i can't believe i'm actually going to wait for linux to fully install...which could be @12:30am, and then i will have to play for a while (and i thought the laundry was going to take a longer time, even after reorging it into some type of order).
Linux wins. i will pay for it tomorrow when the alarm goes off at 4:30am!
UGH!
Cheesysteak reviews on google maps! Pat's, Geno's...more info on that to come...

Visit w/me Auntie

2007-04-29T16:11:00.000-05:00

Her 70th b.day... and she still look good!

O, Pittsburgh...

2007-03-18T00:48:00.000-05:00

you never cease to ravish my heart!
what is it about you?
the mountains?
the water?
the industry?
the church?
the people?
it can't be the call b/c i'm still in MD.

surrounded by love

2007-03-03T00:37:00.000-05:00

i can't hide from the love that comes through so powerfully from the family here.
bringing so much to my life, filling and satisfying.
it's just not possible to settle for less.
there is soooo much love here...and it's pouring out to others...
so humbled by Your love, so strong and so beautiful spilling out on, and through all of us!

whatever was my gain, i now consider loss...

it seems that nothing is happening when looking from a worldly perspective, but when i look at it for what it truly is, i see that it has eternal value...to lose your life for eternal, now invisible things.

this is more than i could ask or imagine...so beyond my understanding, yet so beautiful....so beautiful.

LET ME LIVE LIKE THIS FOREVER...LET ME SPEND MYSELF FOR YOU! what can compare?
your blessing is sooooooo endless, so great...so...more than human words can even begin to explain....

Your ways are beyond any human understanding....YOU ARE SOOOOOOOO GOOD! GOD! You are sooooo good to me!!!!!!!

i've had it!

2007-02-25T00:49:00.000-05:00

i've had it with worldly "wisdom"/quotes/sayings that completely bump God out of the picture and deceive people with lies
that massage emotions!
i've had it!
FOR THE WISDOM OF THIS WORLD IS FOOLISHNESS IN GOD'S SIGHT!

onions

2007-02-22T20:26:00.000-05:00

what wonderful imagery...not too keen on the stink, but...
it comes down to what is and what is not...true/false...simple, yet profound
all being exposed little by little...
unless your like me and and just cut right to it
keep it real and raw!
i hate beating around that stupid bush!
hmmm.....this is a cool revelation...am i finally getting out of the gray and back to the black and white?!
i hope so!
being able to cut through to what's true! philippians being lived out? VERY COOL!
it's all coming back to me now!
the quest i set out on 12 years ago...whoa...12 years! ...perhaps even longer, ranging from pre-Christ days?
the quest for absolute truth!!!! WOW! i remember that obsession and drive to know the absolute truth that applies to all people at all times in all situations - what a mantra!!!! YES!!! i remember the cry of my heart! i just wanted to know - what is!
then, when i entered into the reality in Christ, it defined EVERYTHING...it brought to light - what IS real!
how incredible to know the absolute truth when your young!

the dream

2007-02-21T23:17:00.000-05:00

you still speak through dreams.
loud and clear...
sometimes welcoming,
sometimes causing a rush of emotion b/c of the rawness
sometimes waking into bliss
when You speak and i hear, there are no doubts
there is only one response and no options...all other ways/options are shown to be the illusions they are and not really a way at all.
wow!

i am...

2007-02-20T23:26:00.000-05:00

|f(x)|
|x+1|=oo
graphed!
reflected above the x-axis!!!
and God speaks even through math!!!!!

Allans sayings

2007-02-20T22:20:00.000-05:00

blipity blop
himinhawin
dingdang it

challenge II

2007-02-07T21:26:00.000-05:00

i have such an awesome time "seeing" after we talk...
what beauty is revealed even though we are so different.
it doesn't reveal you or i to be superior or inferior in any way...
but gently and lovingly reveals important things that i didn't have the courage or clue to see about myself by myself.
it's not the most comfortable time, yet...i would not trade one moment...
to grow...
i'm so hungry for this growth ~ to see even more........more freedom to put love into action, to see it.
there's nothing i desire more than to live like this! experiencing the revelation and reality...to feel, to live, to love...alive!!
i want to be molded like this, even though it's uncomfortable...it's powerful!
to experience "His" love, in action - more.....More....MORE....thank you~

oh! that my prayers would not cease, but, continue like the air i breathe~
the heart drinks it in and lives~

BREAK OUT!!

2007-02-06T18:56:00.000-05:00

<>)(@*$&%@)><>??<>@?>$$#!<>?@!<>?!@#------->
OUT OV DA COMFRT ZNE!
baggage blinds

challenge

2007-02-05T23:20:00.000-05:00

you challenge me in new ways that i once knew, to return to...
you challenge me through all the people you love...
to live and experience life in ways i've never known before...
how beautiful~
iron sharpening iron...
the beauty of that which is not like myself...
the beauty of your image in others, shining so beautifully.
to live at a slower pace
to look at the flowers on the wayside
to smell the freshness in the air
to listen
to enjoy
to love, as an act, a giving...a choice~
caught up in Your beauty~
freeing the heart, the mind, the body and soul!!!! to live, to love...with or without...
though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vine,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls,
yet i will rejoice in the Lord,
i will be joyful in God my Savior.
The Sovereign Lord is my strength;
He makes my feet like the feet of a deer,
He enables me to tread on the heights. <3

Wow! in France~

2007-02-03T19:26:00.000-05:00

Check out this "forever on" action! (click on title for the link)

tears - a short story

2007-02-02T18:31:00.001-05:00

Oh broken and beloved generation who is realizing that this world has nothing for them.
this world has nothing for you and it will tell you that you have a problem that can be solved by step 1, 2, and 3...
NNNNNNNOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!
don't listen! o wretched liar, be silent!
God's beloved, people in the world ...YOU WERE WORTH IT!
because of His mind-blowing love that just keeps going and going...HE SAID THAT YOU WERE WORTH IT! YOU ARE VALUED, YOU ARE PRECIOUS, YOU ARE SOOOO LOVED!
there is hope!
there is life!
there is love!
open up and hear the song of love and life that fills the earth!
Hear and be filled with the hope!
don't be scared oh wretched, broken generation by what you see, and feel and hear and may have done...
close your ears to the song of this world!
close your ears to the lies!
close your heart to the world!
fight the fear that is keeping you from the One that sings love songs to you moment after moment after moment after.....
you are so loved.
you are soooo loved!
YOU ARE SO LOVED!
we are so loved...
we are ALL so loved!

WALAH!!! The Gak~

2007-01-31T22:31:00.000-05:00

Thus begins...

2007-01-30T23:44:00.000-05:00

the genesis of sleeplessness for the next 3.25 months! ARGH! ARGH! AND DOUBLE ARGH~!!
but atleast i got in! hopefully i'll be able to catch up fast w/missing only 1 session.
gotta get the ol' bean into geek mode!

the wind is WAILING!!!!!

2007-01-30T23:43:00.000-05:00

whoa, whoa, whoa!
it's been singing some crazy songs the past few nights.

Nikki's 1st Pat's #1 Phili Cheesysteak!!!

2007-01-27T20:49:00.000-05:00

Tyson Rocks...the "one-body" problem

2007-01-20T10:05:00.000-05:00

"In Newtonian Mechanics, the three-body problem involves the challenge of trying to model as a function of time the orbital path of three free floating gravitationally bound objects orbiting around each other. It's a common problem in astrophysics, and there are interesting things that result from it. If you study Lagrange points, you'll realize how these things are useful, especially for satellites.
The two-body problem is slightly different. In the two-body problem, you have a couple, a husband and wife, or boyfriend and girlfriend, or any other pair, and both of them are in science. Unfortunately, one of them gets a post-doc position in Hawaii and the other one ends up at an European Observatory. The two-body problem deals with trying to reconcile this problem.
The one-body problem is similar to the two-body problem... except you're trying to find the second body. It's a tough problem... so many technicalities and circumstances to work out. It's probably just timing"

Fake snow is fine with me~

2007-01-20T00:18:00.000-05:00

Watch the video 6 pics below!

"HE DOES"

2007-01-17T22:12:00.000-05:00

so, i'm starting to come out into the open with my profiles.
little by little i'm revealing more and more...
now, when i should be more cautious i'm letting loose...
well...i think the nations security will be safe...hehe~
so, i'm starting to go beyond the realm of the familiar also...
will this take me to another place?

life is opening up again...but i know there's nothing out there.
however...i feel the tension of a bigger picture.
will it take me away from here?
or is it just the illusion of another way...like Rob's album "10,000 roads and 1 way."
somehow, i don't think the "more" can be found anywhere my feet can go.
i like the lyric of this one song...goes something LIKE "going on another awesome adventure and finding yourself in the same place 2 years later." true and disturbing. so many adventures, and i'm still 21 on the inside.
the rustle of something that was dead, reminding me that it's still there.
i felt it during practice sunday morning.
i felt it after practice months ago.
inviting God to meet with you and He does...that HAS to be it. the "He does" part.
that HAS to be it! there has to be more of that "HE DOES", or the rustle of something greater will never go away.
more adventures, and more disappointments...it will never be that something greater...unless "HE DOES" happens.
can i grab hold of this and cling onto it? i don't want to find myself on the same path i was as a teenager...going here and there, wherever the wind blew...trying this, and trying that...living every dream that was in my heart. i needed a "HE DOES" moment...and i still need it today. even more so.

sometimes i wish i didn't like/do so many things b/c they can get in the way.

Wow!

2007-01-15T17:29:00.000-05:00

The next step after Buddy?
heh...and some people pay to get this removed!!!

Voice of Truth

2007-01-03T06:03:00.000-05:00

V1
Oh what I would do to have
The kind of faith it takes
To climb out of this boat and then
on to the crashing waves

To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown where Jesus is
And He's holding out His hand

But the waves are calling out my name
And they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
Time and time again. "Boy, you never win!"
"You never win!"

V2
Oh what I would do to have
The kind of strength it takes
to stand before a giant
With just a sling and a stone

Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors
Shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand

But the giant's calling out my name
And he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
Time and time again. "Boy you'll never win!"
"You'll never win!"

Chorus:
But the Voice of Truth tells me a different story
The Voice of Truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
And the Voice of Truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of Truth

But the stone was just the right size
To put the giant on the ground
And the waves they don't seem so high
On top of them lookin' down
I soar with the wings of EAGLES
When I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
Singing over me

Chorus:
But the Voice of Truth tells me a different story
The Voice of Truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
And the Voice of Truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me (calling out to me)
I will choose to listen and believe-

I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of Truth

I will listen and believe
I will listen and believe the Voice of truth
I will listen and believe
Cause Jesus you are the voice of truth
And I will listen to you, you are-

Say WHAT!?!?!

2007-01-01T14:16:00.000-05:00

(Razi Pizza

2006-12-29T22:19:00.000-05:00

This is, by far, the craziest pizza i've ever created, seen, and eaten! Yeastless, soy milk homemade crust, spaghetti sauce w/diced veggies, and a hard layer of cheese, like brushetta, with the normal boardwalk lookin cheese under the top layer, which blew up like a balloon until we took it out of the oven!!!!
How did it taste? i'll eat just about anything i cook, better ask my roomies~ It was suggested that we patent it and sell the idea to pizza hut...HAHAHA!! This has been quite a week of cooking inspiration...too much time on my hands...

Night of Conspiracy and Kebobs

2006-12-28T21:02:00.000-05:00

Here is my first Xanga photo series...a little more complex than the midnight snack of egg salad!

You can't beat this price...

...for all this!

How's THAT for thrifty!!

Now banning Wal*Fart

Time

2006-12-27T19:47:00.000-05:00

passes too fast when your not paying attention
passes too slow when you are

DANG!

2006-12-27T05:59:00.000-05:00

smacked into a wall!!!

yes

2006-12-18T22:49:00.000-05:00

Ezekiel 37

The Valley of Dry Bones

1 The hand of the LORD was on me, and he brought me out by the Spirit of the LORD and set me in the middle of a valley; it was full of bones. 2 He led me back and forth among them, and I saw a great many bones on the floor of the valley, bones that were very dry. 3 He asked me, "Son of man, can these bones live?"
I said, "Sovereign LORD, you alone know."

4 Then he said to me, "Prophesy to these bones and say to them, 'Dry bones, hear the word of the LORD! 5 This is what the Sovereign LORD says to these bones: I will make breath [a] enter you, and you will come to life. 6 I will attach tendons to you and make flesh come upon you and cover you with skin; I will put breath in you, and you will come to life. Then you will know that I am the LORD.' "

7 So I prophesied as I was commanded. And as I was prophesying, there was a noise, a rattling sound, and the bones came together, bone to bone. 8 I looked, and tendons and flesh appeared on them and skin covered them, but there was no breath in them.

9 Then he said to me, "Prophesy to the breath; prophesy, son of man, and say to it, 'This is what the Sovereign LORD says: Come, breath, from the four winds and breathe into these slain, that they may live.' " 10 So I prophesied as he commanded me, and breath entered them; they came to life and stood up on their feet—a vast army.

11 Then he said to me: "Son of man, these bones are the whole house of Israel. They say, 'Our bones are dried up and our hope is gone; we are cut off.' 12 Therefore prophesy and say to them: 'This is what the Sovereign LORD says: My people, I am going to open your graves and bring you up from them; I will bring you back to the land of Israel. 13 Then you, my people, will know that I am the LORD, when I open your graves and bring you up from them. 14 I will put my Spirit in you and you will live, and I will settle you in your own land. Then you will know that I the LORD have spoken, and I have done it, declares the LORD.' "

thx em~

2006-12-17T10:25:00.000-05:00

We are a beautiful let down,
Painfully uncool,
The church of the dropouts
And loosers and sinners and failures and the fools
Oh what a beautiful let down

AAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

2006-12-14T22:22:00.000-05:00

I'M NOT GAY!!!!!!

homo-viator

2006-12-03T16:55:00.000-05:00

1-3/4 down, 4 -1/4 to go...
from catastrophe to eucatastrophe~

Smore 4 u

2006-12-02T22:17:00.000-05:00

the Chinese SMORE eating lady!!!

:)

Trixy

2006-11-29T17:09:00.000-05:00

hmmm....some work better than others for different purposes, same goal...hmmm....

the festivities begin

2006-11-26T22:30:00.000-05:00

la niece

it's ON!

yum...COR goes to pa.

yeah, sometimes when you look, it's just your own shadow.
so, this is called...
"overactive imagination"

OY...

2006-11-10T19:53:00.000-05:00

the grease is kickin in....owe........

<3

2006-11-08T22:25:00.000-05:00

God...we need revival...!

NNNNNOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-11-06T19:31:00.000-05:00

Microsoft is doing it!!!!!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!
i should have pattented it!!!!!!!!!!!!
AAAHHHHHH!!!! if only it were google, it wouldn't hurt as much!!!
NNNOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!! VIRTUAL MAPS FROM THE GROUND OFF OF A VIDEO WAS MY IDEA FOR GOOGLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

prov

2006-11-04T17:10:00.000-05:00

The fear of the LORD leads to life; then one rests content, untouched by trouble.

isaiah

2006-11-04T17:03:00.000-05:00

and he will delight in the fear of the LORD.
He will not judge by what he sees with his eyes,
or decide by what he hears with his ears;

The infamous FEET!!!

2006-09-13T16:31:00.000-05:00

hehe...check out the ol' 486 in the background!!!!

OctaDreds!!!

2006-09-13T16:23:00.000-05:00

Yah Mon!

H.Taylor@AC.06

2006-09-06T22:36:00.000-05:00

Power Outage

2006-08-27T17:37:00.000-05:00

Whoops, i wiped it out, so here it is again
I promised myself that i wouldn't post the pic with one of the roomies past out on the couch next to me~

Pow Wow

2006-08-27T17:24:00.000-05:00

ouch

2006-08-23T06:24:00.000-05:00

but we won't be broken or snuffed out...

>>Power Outage<<

2006-08-15T23:15:00.000-05:00

I promised myself that I wouldn't post the pics of the roomie past out on the couch next to me~

the ascii vision

2006-08-04T19:08:00.002-05:00

D-Ratz! not quite what i envisioned. publishing also distorts,,,whew!
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Ahhhh....

2006-08-01T22:20:00.000-05:00

Just taking a breath of fresh air!
Watching in awe and wonder...
there is NO life that can't be changed!!!
NO obstacle too big, or issue too deep!!!
He can do ANYTHING!!!!
ready to watch You move again...
the urgency is real...
blown away by it all!
Your love so strong!
so beyond...
>>>!!!WOW!!!<<<
(ascii art idea forming, will blog if it turns out phatty phat!)

Phili Powertrip 3

2006-07-29T11:51:00.000-05:00

BOT BAN SUCCESSFUL!

2006-07-21T21:20:00.000-05:00

!!BOT BAN!!

2006-07-20T20:33:00.000-05:00

BOTS ARE NOT WELCOME HERE!!!!!
!!!BAN THE BOT!!!
Lesson 1 in the school of hard knocks IT section infro-macion secare-it-eye
BLOCK THE BOT!
Failing is not an option

the AMAZING EXPLODING DELL!!!!!!PC!!!!!

2006-07-18T21:34:00.000-05:00

HOO-HA-HA-HA-HAAAAAAAA!

PreArtscape party @area405

2006-07-03T18:16:00.000-05:00

Midnight snack anyone?

2006-06-27T23:05:00.000-05:00

AMAZING ASCII ART!!

2006-06-22T22:59:00.000-05:00

Beam me up!
CASTED ASCII(2 >53|*4|2473< links)

They're growing, and FAST!!!

2006-06-16T17:44:00.000-05:00